LETTERS FROM JET Hi group. Yesterday I was having a bath, trying to enjoy the last day before my treatments for TN began. I'd been working hard to get as much work out of the way beforehand which is why I haven't posted much on TN-L lately. I was relaxing in the bath when suddenly Jo-Anne, my 4 year-old daughter came in. She had made a nice painting for friends of mine on the TN-L list and she wanted to show it to me. One of the things that struck me in the painting was a bright pink sun - pink is Jo-Anne's favorite color. I want to share the little conversation we had with all of you. Jet: Why did you paint this sun pink, Jo-Anne? Why this color? J-A: I wanted a very warm sun and a pink sun is a very warm, happy sun. Jet: Oh? Is that so? What about a red sun? Isn't that a warm sun? J-A: No, it's not so warm as a pink sun Jet: (I was getting interested now): Jo-Anne? Can a sun be cold too? J-A: Yes it can. (She meant this very seriously) Jet: Oh? Have you ever seen a cold sun? J-A: Yes I have. I have seen a blue sun. Jet (very interested): Oh did you? Is a blue sun a cold sun? J-A: Yes, and a green sun is too. J-A (thinking and giggling a little, continued): It's a sort of sun like it's made of grass Jet: Wow, where did you see those suns? I have never seen those suns before. I want to see them too! J-A: Mum, you *did* see them before. I can make one for you right now. I'll paint a blue sun and I'll cut it out for you. Than she got distracted by something and walked away, with the pink sun painting in her hand, to whatever was drawing her full attention that moment. She left me behind, speechless, and thinking about this precious conversation. She was showing me a way to look at things in a creative way. She was showing me not to blindly accept what I see everyday as the "only" truth - like the bright "white"sun. Even more important, she was showing me that we all have the ability to change our situations into the colors we desire and dream of, as long as we do not give up trying to find the color we want for our lives. Today the sun is blue for me. - cold . The treatments started and I'm in pain. I knew I would be here today. I could cope with the pain. until now. Until now, the medications were doing their job, The jolts, the pressure in my head and face are telling me TN is waiting to grab hold of me, to tear me apart again. Friday is the next treatment. As I sit here with my pain, I am trying to figure out how I can turn a blue sun into the nice warm pink sun from Jo-Anne. I need Naples, white and yellow with a very bright red. It may take time but I will succeed in the end because I believe in this. --- Jet
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